Friday, January 28, 2011

Mom Moves

Two videos:

The first is Aden with Aunt Lizzie doing his new favorite thing- Bouncing. Apparently he thinks getting his shoulders dislocated is the greatest thing in the world. Ow.

The second is actually REALLY embarrassing for me but we all need to laugh at ourselves once in awhile right? Remember how I said Moms just cannot dance? Perfect example. perfect. In my defense- I thought you could only see the doorway, I thought the camera was zoomed in more- hence why I jumped into the area I thought you could see when Aden was behind the camera watching. Honestly, I will probably delete this post later on because I will regret ever showing my mom moves.

Money, Dirt, and Jesus



What's new over here?

Absolutely nothing.

I have a tantrummy -that's a word right? yeah. it is.- 22.5 month old (someday I will stop counting in months, I promise) who gets mad and yells "MOOOOOM" like his world is ending. I've got homework and studying every single night. I'm a single mom with no time to do anything. And it's fantastic. I mean, i'm pretty sure if I hadn't become a mom when I did I wouldn't be getting 4.0's in school and getting 97%'s on Anesthesiology midterms (yeah totally happened on tuesday night). I've got the BEST friends in the world, I have the best family in the world, and I have the best son in the world. What more could I want?!

Omg, about the tantrums though-- they are on a whole new level. If this is terrible 2's
then just give me a gun now. He's on another hunger strike and will only eat yogurt. He insists on putting every gosh darn thing in a bowl or "Boh" as he calls it. I mean, I get the fact that you want to put your snack of goldfish in a bowl, I really do. But when you are getting 1/2 of a graham cracker is a bowl REALLY necessary?

He's also big into "helping". "Helping" empty the dishwasher = taking all of the silverware and throwing it into one drawer. "Helping" do laundry = taking all clean and dirty clothes and mixing them together. Then laying on top. Because that's what real men do. "Helping" sweep the floor= hitting the dog with the broom and laughing hysterically when the dog runs away. Good times.

What I find hilarious is how anti-dirt he is. If he gets any type of fuzz or dirt on his toes or hands he will come over to you and say "yewwww" (A-mans version of ew) and hold out his hand or foot until you remove the "yews".

AJ wakes up at 6:30.. usually. I try to get him to snuggle with me in my bed and watch some yo gabs but that just ends up him screaming "MOM!" in my ear because apparently i'm not moving fast enough. He goes down for a nap at 8:30 and I totally nap with him. I have had the absolute worst insomnia for the past few weeks so I'll get anywhere from 1 (not even joking) to 5 hours of sleep at night and then get 2 or 3 more in during the day.

As for school, my favorite class so far is Parasitology. Any class where you can play with poop and use a microscope is awesome in my book. I smell fantastic after that class. Anesthesia comes in at a close second though. I mean, me with a real needle is just great. Someday I WILL be able to tape an IV catheter in without killing something, I swear.

Did you notice in the video in the last post that Aden calls me mom instead of "money"?! It makes me feel like more of a mom instead of just one of his hoes.

Oh, here is something sad. When I had my thyroid ultrasound- no results yet but omg it is so much more fun when you are having an ultrasound to see a baby- I was about 3 floors below where I had Aden and had my oh-s0-lovely stay in the antepartum unit. On my way out, I saw a new mom being wheeled out of the hospital with her brand new baby. My eyes just filled up with tears. I remember on my way out being the proudest person on the face of the earth. I'm pretty sure I had the biggest, doofiest smile on my face. I also wanted to tell every person I was passing my detailed birth story but we were moving too fast. Anywho, that was me almost TWO years ago. TWO. How do I have a giant 30 pound two year old? That's not even fair.

That's about it... tantrums and school. OH! And before I forget, Aden loves saying grace. Yeah, the kid who can't sit for 5 minutes in church thinks that thanking God for our meal is the greatest thing in the world. We literally have to say it 15 times a day. He sits at his table with plastic food and folds his hands in his lap and waits for me to say it. I'm done thanking God for plastic food. It's not a real meal, nor is it blessed. Every day at lunch I read the excerpt for the day from my Sacred Space prayer book. I could probably read him something from a dirty magazine and make him fold his hands and he'd still be happy but I figure, hey why not throw a little Jesus in the mix. No but seriously, can I hire someone to escort us to church?

Love you Aden Joseph.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

The Phone Call

Aden apparently needed me to get him something so he decided to pick up the phone and call me....



Sound familiar?

The Joys of Fist Pumping

Obviously Aden is learning all his moves from his mom.



Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Do The Pretty Boy Rock

I try REALLY hard to prevent all this cuteness from happening. It's just too much for one person to have. Obviously, it's not working.



P.S.- Aden and I do the Pretty Boy Rock every day (just switch "girl" to "boy"... totally works). Don't hate him 'cuz he's beautiful.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Babysitting

Okay i'm going to try and write a post that makes at least SOME sense, despite the fact that I've gotten an average of 3 hours of sleep per night for the past week and a half.

So here's what's up.

I went to the doctor on Tuesday to talk to her about this ridiculous weight loss. We looked at my chart and I weighed 106 in August and on Tuesday I weighed 96 pounds with shoes, a jacket, and all of my clothes on. She decided to draw some blood to check my thyroid. We just checked my thyroid in August when I was talking about how fatigued I was, and it came back normal so you can imagine how annoyed I was when she suggested it again.

Well, turns out that I have an overactive thyroid. That's pretty much all I know as of now. I am supposed to have an ultrasound on my thyroid this Thursday and more blood drawn in 2 weeks and then I guess we will know more? I made the giant mistake of researching hyperthyroidism and started freaking myself out. Way to go Ellyn.

ANYWAYS, the point of me saying all of this is that I need a babysitter. Not only for Thursday at 10:00am, but also for Tuesdays 4-6 while I go to class. Ryan watches Aden when I have class so I don't really have any time for appointments that I need to go to. If anyone knows of someone who can help me during those times and be kind of like an "on-call" babysitter (I'd let you know at least a week in advance) pleeeeeeeease send me a facebook message or just leave a comment on here.

Other than that whole situation, things are getting way better. I'm back into a routine for the quarter, which is always a plus... and my friends have just been absolutely phenomenal. I got the BEST card from my friend Brenna, just because. Having so much support and so many people to talk to has really really helped.

One thing that I haven't even thought about is Aden's birthday. I mean, I know it's in March and all... but I should probably make some kind of plan. Maybe. I don't even know what I'm going to get him.

School is going well. A lot of work. A lot of stress. But I'm making it! Someday i'm going to post the video of me doing my "blood flow of the heart" rap... not anytime soon... but someday.

Okay so let's all go find a babysitter for Aden right now! Ready, Go!


Thursday, January 13, 2011

Extreme Talking


Whew. Staying up till 2am doing homework is killing me. The only good thing about it is learning about all sorts of nasty parasites that dogs and cats ingest. Dissecting fecal matter is totally my thing.

Let me start off with this awesome video of Aden all grown up. It started as a video of him saying all of the different words he knows, but ended up with him saying "No D" (no idea) and "Iontknow" (i don't know). It was too hilarious to stop taping.



Next is this video that my friend Brittany showed to my friend Bekah who showed it to me. Probably anyone who is pregnant, has been pregnant, or wants to be pregnant, should listen to it. Some people loooooove being pregnant, they feel great, they look great... but I think for most women it is really depressing to watch your body as you know it completely transform. I mean 9.5 times out 10 you aren't going to look exactly like you did before you were pregnant. There is all kinds of shifting goin on. So listen to the song and then send it to every pregnant woman you know and make her cry, just like Bekah did.

Now let me introduce Aden's new favorite item......

drumroll....


His OSU football helmet!! His Grandpa Kiger gave this to him for christmas and he lives in it. Right when he sees it he yells "BALL!" throws his hands up signaling a touchdown, and puts it on. I'm telling you, you do not know the amount of cuteness this kid has in him. I'm pretty sure there is unlimited supply in there.

Also, did you know that Aden turns the big 2 in 2 months? Yep, a week before finals week. I don't know if we will have a big huge giant party this year or keep it simple. I won't have my sister here to help decorate or bake anything (dang it!) and it would pretty much just be me planning the whole thing by myself so we might just shy away from that.

Okay so I know I am video overloading but I just can't help it. This is what we call "Extreme Talking". I never knew that talking could be a competitive sport but apparently it is in Aden's view. You can literally see him trying to push the words out. Work it Aden! You can do it!!

Cool guy.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

1-11-11

Hello friends!!!

Let me first start off by saying thank you, thank you, thank you, for the support. I really appreciate every note, comment, email, message, etc. that people send me.

I want to say that I don't post things to have a pity party for myself or to make people for sorry for me. I post things to make people realize that this is what being a young mom (or regular mom) is like. I mean shoot, I have a really good life and parenting is STILL hard and frustrating and lonely. Like I have said before, I'm not going to sugar coat my life for you. I'm not going to act like everything is all peaches and cream because it's not. And anyone who tells you that their life is indeed peaches and cream, is lying.

I'm not even ready to go into my new relationship status right now because a) it's complicated and b) it's straight up embarrassing after what I posted like 3 weeks ago.

Things in my life are going to change starting right meow. There is going to be some early spring cleaning of some people in my life that just shouldn't be there, and it's going to be great. Like, a new fresh start.

By the way, it's January, and who the heck is ever happy in January? It's gray, it's cold, it's gloomy... I'm allowed to have a sad day right? The challenge is getting up the next day and workin it off. Things may suck for awhile, but they will get better eventually.

I wish I had some great, awesome, intelligent, inspiring quote but all that comes to mind is that song from Jesus Christ Superstar... you know the one...

I bet you had no idea I was such a weirdo. I like rap and musicals. Seem to go well together, I know.

P.S.- I titled it 1-11-11 because it's probably the only thing I'll get to write the date on today. And I wanted to write it. Deal.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

A post that sucks.

I'm going to tell you what sucks. Flat out.

WHAT SUCKS:
- Watching all of your friends have the time of their life in college while you're just begging for college to be over.
- Not being able to meet anyone like, ever due to the fact that I go out, what? twice a month?
- Watching your son run to his Grandma and Grandpa when he gets home and not acknowledging you.
- Being hit every single diaper change
- Having to have the maturity of the 30 year old and not fitting in with people because of it
- The feeling of guilt every time I have a night off.
- Feeling like you are failing miserably at being a parent
- Knowing you are being criticized by everyone. For everything you do.

I'm envious of most people my age. There. I said it. For once in 3 years I want to be selfish. I want to only worry about myself. I want to be able to do what I want, when I want to. I want to be able to eat food when I want to eat food. I want to cry when I feel like crying. I want to stay in bed all day for no reason. But no matter what, that will never be my life. Ever. No matter how far I am from Aden, I will always worry about him. I will always put him before myself.

I knew I would feel this way with the quarter starting again. Who in the world wants to leave their kid for 4 nights in a row to go to school? Probably the part that hurts the most, is that he doesn't even care when I leave. It just DOESN'T affect him. He doesn't cry when I go, he isn't happy to see me when I get home.. It's like i'm failing as a mother.

In the past 2 1/2 months, I have lost 13 pounds. Last time I weighed myself? 92.6. It's like this cycle I just can't break. I get so nervous about school and caught up with Aden that I just don't eat. I'm trying so hard to gain weight right now because I personally don't like looking like a skeleton. I'm tired all the time, Carrying Aden up and down the stairs exhausts me, and I look like i'm sick.


So, What doesn't suck?

Loving my son more than anything in the entire world and knowing that he is all I need to be happy.


Saturday, January 1, 2011

No words


This was Aden tonight, right before bedtime. He had danced to this song about 3 times already so he was pretty exhausted.. No words can describe the cuteness of this. He was pullin' out ALL the moves.